Doctor....

I had my doctors appointment today, and the end result is blood work, x-rays on my hands and a prescription. I haven't been in to see my GP(general practitioner) in almost 4 years, so he said he would have to pull my file to remember the details of my previous diagnosis. He said he is interested to see what my previous x-rays are like compared to what these new ones will be, to see if there has been any damage.

So I'll be on Naprosyn two times a day, and if that doesn't help he said I can increase it to three times a day. I have to admit that I am kind of upset about being on medication. For those who don't know me, I have a huge issue with taking things that are man-made. Call me a conspirator, or crazy or whatever you would like, but I just can't see how something that is supposed to help your condition but just adds more problems to your list of conditions is supposed to be good for you(did that make any sense???).

I feel like I am being defeated, one little step at a time. Yes, Naprosyn doesn't have a huge list of side effects, but it still has some. I just wish that RA was something that would fix itself on its own or be fixed with something as easy as a supplement or a diet change or exercise or yoga or meditation. I feel like I am turning my back on my own ideals and beliefs, but I don't know what other choice I have. On the one hand, I don't want to live in pain for the rest of my life and on the other I don't want to take medication. Maybe I am just seeing everything in black and white.